getting there...

i'm tired of being blue almost always...but as they say, when you're in the bottom, there's no way for you to go but up.

starting today, i will slowly pick up my pieces, and i will make a gigantic effort in putting myself back on track. my mantras for the rest of the year will be: a) i will be a "superstar phenomenon" (however you take that), and b) i will have a LIFE.

it's funny that an important, but nonetheless, a totally irrelevant-to-my-life event can put me in such a warrior/survival-like mode. in a few hours, i will be voting for the future leaders of my country, and making my list of candidates has motivated me to do a mental list of what i should do to get me out of the doldrums. my to-do list is daunting...and i can't help but cringe whenever i imagine myself undergoing my demon challenges. but i'm at a point right now where i desperately need change, and the only person who can do that for me is myself.

so cheers to a peaceful elections later on and to a better, stronger me in the near future...

change is good.